And you just exist, and you try your best to do more than simply exist, and then you see that it's been eight years since your life changed. Ended. Began. Something. And you see that all you've done is exist. Barely.

And you try to convince yourself that it wasn't all wasted. And you fail. And you want to break down. Because it's just too long. Because it's just too much.

Faith is a funny thing. And by funny I mean incredibly cruel.