posted by dave on Friday, August 27, 2004 at 4:55 AM in category ramblings

1. Slow to learn or understand; obtuse.
2. Tending to make poor decisions or careless mistakes.
3. Marked by a lack of intelligence or care; foolish or careless: a stupid mistake.
4. Dazed, stunned, or stupefied.
5. Pointless; worthless: a stupid job.

Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me. - Chinese Proverb

Fool me seventy-three times, what kind of a dumbass am I anyway? - Siltz Extension

Late last Saturday night I was convinced that I would become a social hermit and never again allow myself to be mistreated again.

By Sunday afternoon I had begun to adopt a more reasonable attitude, and that trend has continued throughout the week.

One of my old friends - who taught me a lot about pool and life in general - used to say that to let anyone else's actions affect your own mood was your own fault - not the fault of the other person.

I seem to have forgotten that over the years, along with a lot of other things he taught me.

The thing is, even if though I seem to constantly complain about people and events when I write in this 'blog, I still keep putting myself in the exact same environments week after week. Then the exact same things occur, and I have the exact same reactions.

So who's really at fault here?

I am. I do stupid things for stupid reasons and then I act all surprised when bad things happen.

Since it would be unreasonable to expect that I could stop doing stupid things, I'm going to try the next best thing. I'm going to try to at least stop doing these things for stupid reasons.

Take tonight for example. I COULD go out and see if things are any better - if last weekend was a fluke - but that would be a stupid reason. I know it wasn't a fluke. An example of a non-stupid reason would be to go out because I enjoy it and look forward to it each weekend.

Based on that oversimplified logic I should stay home tonight.

So that's what I'll do.

I think.

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