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Ha ha, very funny.
While I seriously doubt that you are who you pretend to be, you do actually make a valid point.
I just might be a dumbass. In fact, I'd even go so far as to say that I probably am a dumbass.
But not for the reasons that you imply.
The simple fact that so much time has passed pretty much has to invalidate that theory.
Nope, if I'm indeed a dumbass, it's for reasons that you and others of your ilk just don't seem to understand. Reasons that, were you to actually be who you're pretending to be, you'd almost certainly get. Maybe not like, but at least get.
If I'm a dumbass, at least I mean well. There have been far stupider things, done for far less altruistic reasons, than what I'm doing now. Or not doing now. Whatever.
In the end I may very well be proven wrong. Perhaps someday I'll look back at the results of my (in)actions and just weep. Perhaps someday I'll realize just what it is that I've done, and I'll simply be unable to live with that knowledge, and I'll throw myself off a cliff or something.
Perhaps someday I'll see these holes in my awareness filled with facts instead of conjecture.
But for now I have to go with what I do know.
And what I do know, right here, right now, is that I'm taking the only course of action available to me that keeps the vast bulk of the pain directed inward. Where it should be. Back towards the source.
And, if you happen to be who you pretend to be, that was a pretty callous and mean-spirited thing to say. But I forgive you.
That's what friends do after all.