I wonder what that means?

When I least expect it.

This is an important question because I figure that's when the next big terrible fucked up dramatic thing will happen to me. That's when my sanity will once again be shattered and I'll once again have to start from scratch.

But how do you define least here? Is it when I'm aware that something will eventually happen, but probably not now? Or now. Or now. Or now. Or right now.

Or is it like having monkeys fly out of my ass to give presents to the poor kids? I don't expect that at all, so does that mean that I expect it less than this terrible thing that I both dread and long for?

These are important considerations, because if it's the latter then I may be safe for a long time, but if it's the former I could be in real trouble here. I expect this to happen, but not right away. Each day I feel the probability of it happening become a little bit less. Each day I expect it less than I did the day before.

At what point do I hit that magical when I least expect it mark?

I think I hit it when I stop worrying about it, but I haven't quite forgotten about it.

Like right fucking now.

The moral of this entry is to worry about stuff. You may just prevent it from happening.