One of my little weekly rituals as a 'blogger is to read back through the previous week's entries and see if there's anything worth putting into my quotes file.
There are usually a few things that manage to catch my eye as being funny or moving or insightful or ludicrous, so I add them to the file and they go into the random rotation on my main page.
Today I went through last week's stuff, and I selected a few things that I deemed quote-worthy. I put them into the file, and then I view them all in a browser to make sure everything still displays okay.
Viewing the page with all the quotes, it's kind of neat for me. I remember how I felt, what was going on with my life, when I wrote all of those things, so just viewing those little snippets never fails to bring it all back. I get kind of a 10,000 foot view of my own life and my own feelings and how they've progress (or not) since I started doing this 'blog stuff. Like I said, kind of neat.
I got to thinking this morning, wondering actually - What will this quotes file look like in 10 years? Will 'blogs still exist in 10 years? Will I still exist in 10 years? Will I still be fucked up? What will my life be like?
Of course I don't know the answers to any of those questions, but I know what I'd like to see in that quotes file, 10 years from now.
I turned 50 this year, but that's the physical me. I often feel like I'm just 10 years old. I remember being born a decade ago, and it was more painful than I could imagine. But if that's what it took to get me where I am today, with this beautiful person next to me, sharing my life with me, if that's what it took, then it was all worth it.