I don't know why I even bothered to try.
There was no way that I was ever going to be able to handle this.
So I'll deal with it the same way I've dealt with everything else since early September. I'll bottle it up.
By an odd coincidence, all of the labels on the bottles start with the same letter. Loss, Longing, Lust, and Love are now joined by a fifth bottle: Liability.
Guilt would have been better for this last one, but I wanted to stick with the L-words because I like that TV show. Jennifer Beals is hot.