Why is a dog different from a cat?
Sure, both are furry, and both make good pets, and both will shit on your floor from time to time, but they really are completely different creatures.
So why is this time different from the last time?
Same reason. It's a completely different creature.
This time it's a crush. It's as simple as that.
The last time, the last time it was something else. Something terrifying, something fascinating, something dangerous.
Whatever it was, it most certainly was not a crush. And fuck anyone who tries to dismiss it as such. I was there. I lived through the fucking thing. I died through the fucking thing.
Lately, people talk to me, or they read what little I allow myself to post, and some of them start to think to themselves, Oh shit. Dave's going off his rocker again. Then they either try to talk some sense into me, or they sit back to enjoy the show that they're sure is about to start.
Either way, they're wasting their time. Because this is different. This is normal. This is nothing. Yet.
Fuck. I didn't mean to write the yet part.
Please disregard it.