posted by dave on Friday, March 10, 2006 at 3:02 AM in category ramblings

I had a couple of remarkably similar conversations tonight, with two different friends. The subjects were similar, as was the advice I offered. The other thing that was similar was that I'm pretty sure that both conversations ended with my friend thinking, Wow, what a fucking hypocrite Dave is.

I believe that my friends were thinking this, because I was certainly thinking it.


I was going to write a lot more, and I have written a lot more. I've deleted hundreds of words three or four times.

It was all bullshit.

I was going to write that I've thought things over, and that I no longer believe that I'm a hypocrite. I was going to write that too much time has passed for me to take my own advice. I was going to write that 18 months ago I did try those things that I suggested tonight.

I was going to write a lot of things. I did write a lot of things. But I deleted it all several times.

It was all bullshit.

I guess the motto of this little piece of drivel, if you feel like you need one, the motto would be, Do as I say, not as I do.

I tell myself that it's too late for me to take my own advice. I've been telling myself that for over a year. I've told myself so often and with such conviction that I've managed to make it true.

I am an idiot.

Use that for a motto, if you prefer.

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