For a while, after she got her hair cut, her hand would still move to her shoulder, and her fingers would twirl hair that wasn't there anymore. She did it all the time, and then she'd laugh at herself because she forgot.
I remember how she looked in my bathrobe. How it would never stay closed. I remember hiding the belt so it would never close again, and how she laughed when I told her what I'd done.
She'd take her finger and trace soft circles on my arm, or on my hand, or on my chest. It wasn't enough for her to touch me - she always had to give it that little bit extra.
In my peripheral vision, I'd see her looking at me, and when I'd turn my head and catch her doing it, she'd always blush.
I remember how she'd fall asleep in the car, no matter how short the drive was.
She would grab my hand, and hold it tightly when we had to walk by strangers on the way back to our cars.
I remember the little dance she did once when a song she liked came on the radio.
One morning I woke up to her whispering my name. My cat had finally allowed her to pick him up, and she was standing by the bed holding him. She was so excited.
When she was struggling, trying to think of the perfect words to say, her face would get all contorted, and I'd mimic her expression until she caught me.
She was so very nervous, that first time, and when we were done the sweat glistened on her skin like a million tiny stars.
I remember all of these little things, and so many more. I think that I will remember them forever.
It's such a cruel world that let's me love every single thing about a person, but that won't let my heart take that extra step.
Such a cruel fucking world.