I was thinking just now, about how much I miss you.

But beyond that, I was thinking about what I might have done to keep us from being where we are, how we are right now.

But there is nothing I could have done.

The truth can't be ignored, and it can't be denied, and it can't be fought. It is what it is. And there's not a thing we can do about it.

You are the most amazing person I've ever known. Will ever know.

That's the truth.

But, for now anyway, when I allow my mind to relax, you're not the first one I think of. And when I allow my heart to yearn, you're not the first one it needs and craves.

That's the truth, too. I'm so fucking sorry, but that's the truth.

You taught me that the truth was always better than a lie.

Was that lesson, was that lesson the truth?

Was it?