This is just some crap I wrote tonight at Sluttopia. I'd had this great idea to write some moving and uplifting entries, but then, on the way there, I was reminded of three things. Two things that pissed me off, and another that caused me great concern.
Anyway, here's what I came up with. In case you can't tell, I was in a bad mood by the time I got to Sluttopia.
I thought it was a simple request, and I thought I'd asked it clearly. But, maybe not. So I'll ask again.
Please. Stop. Fucking. Interfering. With. My. Personal. Life.
I don't know how I can make myself any more clear. Maybe if I throw in the word fucking a few more times.
Please. Fucking. Stop. Fucking. Interfering. With. My. Fucking. Personal. Fucking. Life.
If this simple request of mine continues to be ignored, I think that the circumstances will pretty much force me to reassess some friendships. And I don't want to do that. It would suck.
These latest instances of meddling, while perhaps oriented toward a different goal, are no less dangerous, no less disruptive, and no less despised than that last round of meddling.
I am actually teetering on the edge right now, between frustration and outright anger. And I don't like myself when I'm angry.
I don't want to lose friends over this. I really don't. But I will lose friends, if that's what I'm driven to do. If that's the choice I'm forced to make, then there is no choice.
My priorities are clear.
To me at least.
Some other people think they know my priorities. They think that they know me, because they've talked to me and/or read my drivel.
But they don't know shit. They only see the surface, what I allow them to see.
They haven't seen with my eyes or listened with my ears or felt with my touch. They haven't lived in my world, every perception distorted and only then interpreted by the tangible and intangible senses that make me who I am. What I am. How I am.
Conspiratorial whispers and blatant attempts at manipulation - does that crap really work? I mean, besides with children and idiots? I am neither of those things.
Then, I stopped writing, because I was starting to feel mean. I started to write a different entry, something much less controversial and more irrelevant, but my mood was already shot to shit by then.