The thing is, I don't think I have anything to say. Or maybe there's plenty to say, but nothing I'm willing to say here.

Yeah, I bet that's it.

My mind is swarming with unpleasant thoughts today. That, and thoughts of tiredness, since I haven't slept since an aborted attempt at a nap Thursday afternoon.

But I'm trying to cope. Trying to find some sense of self. I went to Polly's for lunch. Didn't help. I went down to the river and that certainly didn't help. I might do an entry about that someday. I took pictures.

I'm back home now. Lost inside my own head, clawing at these walls, trying to find a door so I can step outside and have a smoke or something. To get away from this barrage of thoughts, for just a few short minutes, would be so nice. Maybe then I could sleep.