posted by dave on Thursday, March 26, 2009 at 11:02 PM in category ramblings
Okay, so in my last entry I said that I didn't know what I wanted anymore.
Now, I know.
I want to wake up and find that it's 2003, sometime before the Fall of that year.
I keep pinching myself, but I can't fucking wake myself up.
This has to be a nightmare.
It can't be real.
sometimes the nightmares ARE real. You can pinch yourself, throw things,rip at your skin, or take off running through your yard to try to get away. Nothing helps. What does help, is that with time you learn to simply accept the nightmare and absorb it.It doesn't go away, you just get more used to it and more able to carry it with you. It's sad to say that my life has become a constant chore of keeping my pain from making me crazy, but it is what it is. Just want you to know that whatever happened, you will also learn to better carry this...in time. XOXOXOOX
posted by: Dina | March 27, 2009 5:36 AM