posted by dave on Wednesday, July 1, 2009 at 6:13 PM in category ramblings

I was just reading some old emails, from a year ago. Right before and right after I found out she was seeing someone.

I read one email wherein I said that I expected to have to go through it several times, and that each time would be tougher than the last, but that it would all be worth it eventually. I'd be the one who would always be there when she needed someone, and eventually I'd be noticed.

And now, a year later, I fear that it's all starting again. And I'm not there.

This really sucks.

Maybe it'll storm tonight. That always cheers me up. Must buy some beer, though.

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While storms always worry me, they're also strangely calming and soothing.

There must be an eventual ending for this soap opera of yours. I just hope it's a happy one, in whatever way.

If she's happy, then of course a part of me will be happy.

It never did storm here.

I'm in a relationship where I'm;
needed, not wanted,
accommodated, not desired,
spoken to, not with.

Be careful what you wish for, if "she settles" for you, you'll feel it and I can't imagine anyone likes to be that which was settled upon, I know I don't.

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