posted by dave on Sunday, October 17, 2010 at 3:08 PM in category ramblings

I had this thought, this entirely different way of looking at things. I had it, a week ago today, and it led me to a place I'd never expected to be again. The thought is gone now. It's gone back into hiding inside my head.

But, it's in there. Just knowing that it's in there means a lot to me. Just knowing what's possible means the world to me.

Wait a second. That wasn't entirely true. It didn't go back into hiding. I did.

A wise man once wrote:

Like an animal raised in captivity, when I became too afraid of the opportunities and obstacles presented by my newfound freedom, I ran back into the comfort and safety of my cage.

But it's okay. I feel safe in here. I feel like myself in here. In here, everything is perfectly clear. All of my hopes and dreams and desires, in here they're all the same. There are no wrong choices in here. There are no choices at all.

And now I can't even remember what I'd been thinking. Like the memory of a dream, it faded too quickly, and now I'm left confused and dumb. Trying to decide if I'd really dreamed at all.

The easy thing isn't always the right thing. I wish that it was. I wish a lot of things.

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In my experience, the easy thing is rarely the right thing, unfortunately.

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