I don't like it. I'm not entirely sure why I don't like it, but I don't.
It's just been too long. Too much water under the bridge, as they say.
I'm concerned, I think. I don't know what's going to happen next. Could be good, could be bad, could be nothing. I don't like this uncertainty. It, like I said, concerns me.
Plus, I'm a different person now than I was back then. I think I'm a better person now, though anyone who knew me back then might disagree. I'm certainly not the same person. Not even close.
And I don't really like being reminded of how I used to be. Oh sure, I might have eventually gotten around to doing the right thing, 20 years ago, but I should never have let it come to that point. To where the right thing was so fucking painful, I mean.
Could have been worse. I could have stuck around, kept hiding things, eventually exploded.
That would have been gross.