I'm going to ramble for a bit. Get over it. Or not. I don't care. It's my blog.
She's always been nice. Always. Not just when she's been drunk, or when she's wanted something, or when she's felt guilty. Despite the bullshit of two months ago, I can truthfully say that she's always been nice.
And, she's always been sweet. Always. Not just when she's been drunk, or when she's wanted something, or when she's felt guilty.
Tomorrow, I'm going to see her. After almost six months, I'm going to hold her.
But who am I going to miss? Who am I going to continue to miss?
Same person I miss right now.
Someone who's nice, at least when she's drunk, or when she wants something, or when she feels guilty. Someone who's just incredibly unbelievably sweet, at least when she's drunk, or when she wants something, or when she feels guilty.
(That last paragraph reads a lot meaner than it was intended. There were other times. Lot's of other times.)
I'm going to miss her, as I've always missed her, for a lot of reasons. Inertia, partly, but also because I was telling the truth that night. The night after the hurricane, when I took her hand, and I took a breath, and I finally told her that she was the love of my life.
Last time I checked, I was still alive. My life was ongoing.
So my statement still counts. To me at least, it counts. For something.