posted by dave on Tuesday, January 10, 2012 at 1:06 AM in category ramblings

Sometimes, that's all you can do. Gasp for air, and then do it again and again. An act of will, every time, and also an act of desperation.

I remember the first time I had to gasp like this. I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. What had just happened. What this portended. Everything had changed, and I only needed to live, to keep gasping for air, until it changed again.

Sometimes, things don't work out.

To be so lucky, and still so cursed.

Words didn't work. Actions didn't work. Precious comfortable promising moments didn't work. Even the fucking magic wand didn't work.

My gasps aren't much more than exclamation points now. Screams from a voice that's gone hoarse.

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You should blah blah blah blah...

I keep giving you the benefit of a doubt, that maybe you're not a complete preachy asshole. Well, I've been wrong. This is not the first time, and it's almost certainly not the last time. Find someone else to preach at. I'm not putting up with you any more.

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