This time, I thought, it will be different. This time, I will not cower inside the cell of my own doubts while fear and uncertainty stand vigilant sentry. This time, if I fail, there will be a reason.

Those might have been the last coherent thoughts that I had today.

I don't know how those turtles do it. Stick their necks out like that all the time.

But it's something that I had to do, if things were truly going to be different.

So I did it.

Too soon, people will say.

Better than too late, I will respond.

And now I wait.

You failed again, people will say.

At least I tried this time, I will respond.