This time, I thought, it will be different. This time, I will not cower inside the cell of my own doubts while fear and uncertainty stand vigilant sentry. This time, if I fail, there will be a reason.
Those might have been the last coherent thoughts that I had today.
I don't know how those turtles do it. Stick their necks out like that all the time.
But it's something that I had to do, if things were truly going to be different.
So I did it.
Too soon, people will say.
Better than too late, I will respond.
And now I wait.
You failed again, people will say.
At least I tried this time, I will respond.