Over the last several months, it has come to my attention numerous times, that I should have accepted the fucking offer.
Heh, the fucking offer. That's some funny shit, right there.
But, I didn't. Then, I didn't again. And, finally, I didn't again.
I think that's the correct count of the times I started out being a good guy and ended up being a dumbass.
And, after each episode of retardation, I resolved that the next time it would happen, and then I'd be able to deal with the consequences easier because I'd be wearing a big goofy grin on my face.
But, it never did happen. This was never about that, though. Not for me. There were bigger fish to fry and all that.
But, I ask myself over and over and over and over and over, since when did my desires matter?
Yep, I definitely should have accepted the fucking offer. Every time it was made.
It would have been good.
And now that my entire life has been reduced to nothing more than a series of memories, it would be cool to have those particular memories in my head.
Man, I was such a dumbass. A good guy, but a dumbass nonetheless.