Every single time, it happens. Every single fucking time. I see, and it happens. I hear, and it happens, I smell or I touch, and it happens.
And I can't describe it with any clarity, and I can't endorse it with any understanding, and I can't espouse it with any eloquence, and I can't dismiss it with any abruptness. I can't I can't I can't I just fucking can't.
It's just fucking there. It just fucking happens. It just fucking is.
That's the question that I ask myself every 10 seconds. That's the question that everyone on Earth asks me every chance they get.
"Why?" they ask.
"Fucking just because," I reply.
Eyes meet, and circuits close. Words are exchanged, and energy flows. Auras merge, and affection glows.
And, every now and then...
Hands touch, and desire grows. Skin slides, and lust shows. Lips meet, and love overflows.
Sometimes I wish we would just talk about all this. Not discuss and not debate and certainly not argue. Not lie and not predict and not dismiss and not make excuse after fucking excuse. Just talk.
I guess it's because I'm a man. I always think that things can be fixed. Even when they're not really broken. I constantly look for the words to make everything okay, and I constantly ignore the fact that okay may be too lofty a goal.
Lately though, more and more often, I've thought about eschewing words, and letting actions speak my volumes for me. For us. Words, after all, have done zero good.
Perhaps it's time for action. Perhaps it's too late for action. Fuck, perhaps it's too late for anything.