The thing is, I'm not the same person that I used to be. In some ways I'm better, but in most ways, I think, I'm worse than before.
Either way, I don't want to ever be that person again. Never ever ever again.
I once wrote that hope exists to disappoint. Well, my hope disappointed a long time ago, and so I killed it, and I'm glad that it's gone.
Wait, that's not quite true. I didn't kill it. One person clonked it over the head and held it down so another person could stomp it to death. I just watched in horror. Frozen and disbelieving.
And then they both took a shit on the corpse.