One of the things that always happens, is that my senses get so damn overloaded.
I spend all of my energy just trying to remain conscious. I focus so much on seeing that I forget to actually look. I focus so much on hearing that I forget to actually listen.
It's quite annoying, really.
There have been so many conversations that I've missed. Not because I wasn't there, but because I was so enthralled by the sound of a voice that the actual words became white noise. There's been so much beauty that I've failed to appreciate, not because I didn't see it, but because I was so mesmerized that everything became a blur.
It'll get easier, I keep telling myself.
But what do I know anyway. It could just as easily get worse.
I wish others could see what I see, hear what I hear.
Then maybe they could describe those things to me, once I get out of my daze.
Anyway, I'm pretty sure that lunch was nice today. I wish I could remember.