Today was the fifth day in a row that I've gone to HatGirl's house to take care of her critters, but I still haven't seen the kitty even once. I do, however, know that the kitty is still alive because I set treats out each day and the next day they're gone.
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I get so sick and tired of people trivializing my problems and expecting me to act normal all the time. I do good to get out of bed in the mornings. Anything more than that is a bonus.
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Tonight I had a nice long talk with my dad's ghost. It took some doing, and a couple bottles of Three Floyd's Gumballhead (215), to conjure him up, but I eventually succeeded.
It was a really nice conversation.
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Every now and then I'll be driving - it's usually in Louisville - and I'll see some random young man walking down the sidewalk, using one hand to keep his super-loose pants from falling down.
I always wonder what kind of a terrible life that must be, the constant pressure that must involve.
Stretching an analogy almost to its breaking-point, I kinda do the same thing as those random young men.
Except that it's not modesty that I'm trying to preserve. Nope, it's my sanity.
I walk through life desperately clutching to pieces of myself that threaten to fall to the ground.
And shatter.
The shattering part is where the pants analogy breaks down. Because pants don't shatter, unless they haven't been washed in a zillion years, and that's an entirely different problem.
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You know what's really nice to hear from the love of your life?
"Well, I wouldn't say you were the worst person ever."
That's what's nice to hear. Hope springs eternal, and all that.
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Also, people who don't like the way I am should stop trying to guilt me into being something else. It won't work.
Empathy does not require understanding or agreement. Those are common misconceptions, but those things really are irrelevant to empathy.
Empathy can stand on its own and do just fine.
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For those keeping score at home, I still haven't renewed any of my vehicle registrations. They were already closed on Saturday when I got there. They were closed today, and they'll be closed tomorrow. So I get to drive around illegally until Tuesday.
Fun!
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That's it for now. I need to go out to my garage and glare at my phone for a while.
