posted by dave on Monday, September 28, 2009 at 4:02 PM in category ramblings
I wish...
And then my mind just sort of trails off.
I don't know how to finish that thought. Not anymore. I don't know what I wish. What I want. I used to know exactly what I wanted.
I guess...
For this to end, one way or another, that would be nice. But how?
To stop being toyed with, to stop being tortured, those things would fantastic. But I don't really see those things ever happening. There may be some sick pleasure involved, some twisted motive that I could never understand.
Or maybe...
Just maybe there's still something good, and it will eventually make itself known.
Meanwhile...
I wait. For what, I have no idea. Not anymore.
No chance of embracing indifference?
If you were to ask people the opposite of love, they typically respond "hate". But that's not entirely true. Hate requires as deep a "feeling" as love does.
Now indifference. . . there's no feeling one way or the other, very liberating.
posted by: Iron Butterfly | September 29, 2009 7:20 AM
Indifference, I don't see that ever happening. There will always be some strong feelings there. What form they take, I can't say for sure. I used to be sure.
posted by: dave | September 29, 2009 7:39 AM