posted by dave on Monday, September 28, 2009 at 4:02 PM in category ramblings

I wish...

And then my mind just sort of trails off.

I don't know how to finish that thought. Not anymore. I don't know what I wish. What I want. I used to know exactly what I wanted.

I guess...

For this to end, one way or another, that would be nice. But how?

To stop being toyed with, to stop being tortured, those things would fantastic. But I don't really see those things ever happening. There may be some sick pleasure involved, some twisted motive that I could never understand.

Or maybe...

Just maybe there's still something good, and it will eventually make itself known.


I wait. For what, I have no idea. Not anymore.

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No chance of embracing indifference?

If you were to ask people the opposite of love, they typically respond "hate". But that's not entirely true. Hate requires as deep a "feeling" as love does.

Now indifference. . . there's no feeling one way or the other, very liberating.

Indifference, I don't see that ever happening. There will always be some strong feelings there. What form they take, I can't say for sure. I used to be sure.

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